I AM

The mother to seven wonderful boys
happily married
the baby of five
the aunt to 3 boys and 5 girls
one of the adults of the family
sometimes wishing I wasn't
missing Gram something terrible
also missing my in-laws
over the fact that pop has a new wife
wishing that my sisters would be
hoping that my brother will come home soon
wanting to goto Indiana again
strong
talkative
not weak
always laughing at my husband
happy with my life
wondering if Mom is taking care of herself
thinking that kids are growing up to fast these days
sometime wishing I was in highschool again
not ever going to quit taking a stand against people who disrespect my family
in love with my husband.
looking forward to seeing my kids grow up

Do you remember?

JFK being shot?









Or the day Elvis died?

Or even the day this John Lennon

was taken from us?

Or the day Reagan was shot?

How about the day the space shuttle

fell from the sky?

Or the OKC bombing?

Or the day The twin towers fell

and we cried?


Now I'm not being totally morbid, these are days that all of the 'baby boomer generation' cannot forget. I barely remember the day John Lennon was shot, I looked up at my grandmother who was a big fan, said 'What's wrong baboo?' She said 'Nothing, someday you will understand.' Took me several hours and I finally asked my eldest sister. She told me 'John Lennon died' OK I'm five, who's John Lennon? I eventually found out.

The day the Space Shuttle fell from the sky. I was at school, the big thing was at that time was to go watch the Shuttle lift off. Of course, no one knew what was going to happen. We watched it go up and up, and then boom. I don't think there was one that was not crying.

The OKC Bombing. I was watching TV waiting for my husband to come home. I had fell asleep. He came home woke me up and said 'What movie are you watching?' I said ' I don't know!' We watched a little longer come to find out we were not watching a movie.

And of course we all remember 9/11.....I was at home. With my sons, and Gram had called saying that she was scared for my brother who was in Texas, scared that they might go wild and head to Texas.

All of these are scary things. Losing loved ones in an attack, losing a favorite singer, the thought of losing a President, or even losing a President, or even an accident. In life we never know what's going to happen from day to day. We hope and pray for the sun to raise tomorrow and nothing will happen. But the unknown is apart of life, something we all need to get used to. Maybe teaching our children about the past, our future will be brighter?

wow!

I really need to do this more. It seems that I always forget to do it...I should know better. I'm always telling my sons, 'Did you remember to do (fill in the blank)?' Why can't I remember to blog daily? Maybe because I'm so worried that they didn't do their homework, or clean their rooms, or get their assignment book signed, or even put their shoes where we can find them for the next morning. I'm so wrapped up in being a Mother, that sometimes(OK ,who are we joking) A LOT of the time I forget about me. But then again, when I got married to Ray, and had our first son, I knew what I was getting myself into. I never wanted to be a Doctor, or a Nurse, a lawyer, or a teacher. But I always knew from the time I was a little girl, that I was going to be a wife and mother. I didn't set goals like any of my sisters, or my friends. I remember in the first grade, (there were only three girls in the glass) and the teacher asked,'What are you going to be when you grow up?' The two other girls both said ' A nurse!' (which I just found out that both of them are.) She looked at me said 'How about you?' I said 'I'm going to be a wife and mother!'
She said 'That's it?' I said 'What to you mean that's it? Its going to be hard and challenging, I may not get paid in money, but I will get paid in other ways!'
So I guess yes, I could complain about never having anytime for myself. There is always something to do...laundry, dishes, giving baths(of course anymore, I only do the little ones),helping with homework,signing assignment books, breakfast/lunch/dinner...That's my job and I love it. I wouldn't change it for a million dollars......